I'm a Mess!

I CANNOT seem to get organized!

Jeff and I went last night and made the final selection on my ring, it's an Ideal cut, colorless stone, round and .96 c. Sweet! This diamond is so pretty it hurts to think about it. Really. I'm getting a little panicked at the thought of wearing it on my finger for the rest of my life. I don't question marrying Jeff, just my ability to not have the stone fall out or something.

Anyway, I meant to start over this week and try and get my tail back on the program. I had been doing so well for the last month and then all of the wedding stuff happened and I sank right back in to old habits. It's a nervous thing, I get that. I just wish I could get on top of it. I keep telling myself that I need to focus on one decision at a time but frankly, I seem to vacillate between forgetting to eat and almost passing out, and gorging myself on comfort foods.

I haven't been to the gym in I don't know how long, though I really want to go! It's just that there never seems to be the time. This wedding is snowballing into twice the size that we originally anticipated and it's freaking me out. I'm a detail person and there are so many initial decisions that need to be made that I can't figure out how to get everything done, still home school, and still function in other areas of my life.

Does that make sense?

It's like I barely had enough time to work and home school before and now that we've tossed wedding planning into the mix, WOW! I barely get laundry done, I barely SHOWER!

I guess it's because I'm planning a huge amount of DIY projects to save money. Invitations were the project of the day- I have NO IDEA what I want. Colors. Nothing. My Save the Dates have to be put together by Oct 6th or I lose the fantastic deal that I found on them. How good of a deal? Try 100 personalized, professionally printed, engagement photo attached postcards for $12 shipping included! Yeah. THAT good.

I just need to quickly teach myself how to use Adobe inDesign or Illustrator to put them together. No biggie right? LOL

I feel gross right now. I've gained about four pounds in the last week and a half and I can't seem to get it in gear. I'd totally step back from everything for a few days, but unfortunately, there just isn't the time. See above for example.

I'm thinking Saturday will be the day. It's my birthday and I'm going to relax and enjoy it. We'll probably take some of our engagement photos then, I'll get my ring (YAY!), and all will be right with the world.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to take an online tutorial of Illustrator.